Today, I will get back on track. I have slipped off the track of recording what I am eating on my Weight Watcher's online program. I don't think I have done horribly bad but I am not sure of the flex points I still have available to me. I guess my punishment should be for the rest of the week that I stick to my allotted amount and only go over if I exercise and I have extra points for that reason. Ugh! Why did I do this? I know why, because I gave in one day and have a little more than I was supposed to and avoided the situation by simply not tracking my points. Yeah, that worked....NOT!
Ok, time to go back to cleaning....right after I logged what I ate for breakfast today.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
My Enthusiasm is Waining!
Until 2 days ago I was facing the subject of eating healthy and following Weight Watchers with enthusiasm and devotion. Yesterday I managed to somehow end up at BW3's....I am not sure how that happened but 6 boneless wings later, some potato wedges with cheese, and a tall bud-light later I went home. I know I need to be able to go out occasionally and eat foods like this but it made it hard for me to feel like I had had a good day. Today, I know I ate ok but not great. I guess I should go to bed now (8:07 pm) so I don't eat anything else. I weigh in tomorrow morning so hopefully I will see a loss so I can regain my enthusiasm.
Spring break begins tomorrow at 2:54 p.m. and I am so ready for a little break from the students. Although, I would say they have been behaving better the last couple of days than they have for weeks. I hope they fall back into the routine when we return from spring break.
Speaking of spring break, we are just mainly going to be relaxing and doing a few fun things here and there.
Ideas for spring break include:
Spring break begins tomorrow at 2:54 p.m. and I am so ready for a little break from the students. Although, I would say they have been behaving better the last couple of days than they have for weeks. I hope they fall back into the routine when we return from spring break.
Speaking of spring break, we are just mainly going to be relaxing and doing a few fun things here and there.
Ideas for spring break include:
- Movie
- Museum Center and Imax movie
- Indianapolis to visit a college friend.
- Maybe stay in a hotel while in Indy so G-Man can swim.
- Columbus to go to the COSI museum
- Lego's Kidsfest
- Attempt to stay home and save $$$$$$
- Clean the house
- Organize stuff
Monday, March 12, 2012
Patience and Determination
I didn't go to work today because I had two appointments. I just have to say, I have always thought if needing to take a day of it should be a Friday. Not any more! If I have to take a day off work (which is not very often 1-2x a year) in the future it will definitely be a Monday if I can arrange it. I loved that Sunday night I was not rushing to get everything finished before starting the work week. Of course, that just means it's now Monday night and my house is a wreck and I still haven't folded the laundry I avoided last night. UGH!
After our dentist appointments we had a great afternoon/evening. We did some browsing, shopping, and I even spoiled Grant a bit and we went to Chuck E. Cheese for dinner and some game playing. Tomorrow morning is going to be rough. He didn't' get to sleep until 10:00 p.m. which is and hour after his normal bedtime.
Weight Watchers is still going strong. I finally understand the saying, "Thin feels better than food tastes (or something like that.)"I am continuing to realize the burden of eating out of control had on my mind and body. Even though I am just beginning this journey I had another confidence filled day knowing I was fully invested in this new beginning for myself. While shopping tonight I didn't feel fat or frumpy I just simply opened my eyes to all the beautiful clothes at Macy's and understood that if I continued on this path in a few short months I could reward myself with a piece of clothing that I could not possibly wear before this journey began.
Time to try out the Memory foam pillow I splurged on today. Hopefully, it will help relieve some of the neck issues I have.
After our dentist appointments we had a great afternoon/evening. We did some browsing, shopping, and I even spoiled Grant a bit and we went to Chuck E. Cheese for dinner and some game playing. Tomorrow morning is going to be rough. He didn't' get to sleep until 10:00 p.m. which is and hour after his normal bedtime.
Weight Watchers is still going strong. I finally understand the saying, "Thin feels better than food tastes (or something like that.)"I am continuing to realize the burden of eating out of control had on my mind and body. Even though I am just beginning this journey I had another confidence filled day knowing I was fully invested in this new beginning for myself. While shopping tonight I didn't feel fat or frumpy I just simply opened my eyes to all the beautiful clothes at Macy's and understood that if I continued on this path in a few short months I could reward myself with a piece of clothing that I could not possibly wear before this journey began.
Time to try out the Memory foam pillow I splurged on today. Hopefully, it will help relieve some of the neck issues I have.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Grocery Success
Well, I went to the grocery. I spent $94 and there was not a single thing in my cart that was bad for us. I am so happy! We had a delicious dinner and desert. My fridge and kitchen is packed full of healthy food that tastes good. Here to a great week.
P.S. I walked again this evening for 40 minutes at a pretty fast pace. :-)
P.S. I walked again this evening for 40 minutes at a pretty fast pace. :-)
Sunday Morning Ramblings
It's time to go to the grocery. Wish me luck as I try to purchase foods based on healthy meals and not from habit. I have a tendency to purchase the same stuff each time I go to the grocery. They are not always exciting or healthy. So, my plan is to with 3 or 4 different recipes in mind an then purchase some fruit and a few treats to look forward to all day long.
I treat myself to something special each night as a reward to a great day.
Exercise? Yes, yesterday I took a nice vigorious walk with my mom and my dogs. It lasted about 40 minutes and that added 4 points to my activity points.....YAY! I plan to do the same today. We have had such fabulous weather this winter and this weekend the weather has been in the 60's and Sunny. Beautiful weather for the beginning of March, I hope it sticks around for our spring break because I am not going on a trip and it would be great to have nice weather for the entire week.
Laundry? Yesterday I washed four loads of laundry but that was only sheets and blankets. So, today I guess I better get to the clothing so we have something to wear this week!
Cleaning? Hmm, hasn't happened yet this weekend. Definitely has to happen later today because the floors are d.i.s.g.u.s.t.i.n.g! Not to mention I would like to do a complete overhaul of my bedroom.
Daniele? He has had a great weekend. He didn't do much more than play but he had a blast doing that. He enjoyed the musical we went to see last night.
Well, I guess it's time to go to the grocery and get this day started. Until next time...
I treat myself to something special each night as a reward to a great day.
Exercise? Yes, yesterday I took a nice vigorious walk with my mom and my dogs. It lasted about 40 minutes and that added 4 points to my activity points.....YAY! I plan to do the same today. We have had such fabulous weather this winter and this weekend the weather has been in the 60's and Sunny. Beautiful weather for the beginning of March, I hope it sticks around for our spring break because I am not going on a trip and it would be great to have nice weather for the entire week.
Laundry? Yesterday I washed four loads of laundry but that was only sheets and blankets. So, today I guess I better get to the clothing so we have something to wear this week!
Cleaning? Hmm, hasn't happened yet this weekend. Definitely has to happen later today because the floors are d.i.s.g.u.s.t.i.n.g! Not to mention I would like to do a complete overhaul of my bedroom.
Daniele? He has had a great weekend. He didn't do much more than play but he had a blast doing that. He enjoyed the musical we went to see last night.
Well, I guess it's time to go to the grocery and get this day started. Until next time...
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Trying this Again with a New Focus
I did it! I finally decided it's time to take charge of my life and find ways to help me be happy and actually live my life instead of just going through the motions.
My child is still my focus. Work is still a priority. Family is still a focal point in my life.
So, what was missing?
ME!
I live a rather solitary life once I reach the weekends. I often come home from work on Friday and that is it, I don't make plans with my friends, I don't go out an meet new people, I don't go outside my comfort zone. So, what do I do? I sleep, watch TV, take care of my son, clean, laundry, groceries.
Life is not supposed to be like this. Right? How did I get here? How can I get out of here and start living again?
So, here is what I have decided to do....join Weight Watcher's online. I have tried Weight Watcher meetings in the past and was somewhat successful for awhile at least. Then I found I would be too busy with work and running my son to his activities to really be devoted to the plan and going to the meetings. So, I am trying the online route for now. The online tools are great and now that I have a smart phone and access to computers at home and school I have no excuses of it being inconvenient.
I have been "thinking" about doing something about my weight for years. The key word there is "thinking." I thought about my weight and how I was disappointed in myself many times a day. I would just become discouraged and got into the habit of eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and before I knew it I had gained 30 MORE pounds. I found myself staying home if I didn't have to work, avoiding social situations, and being focused only on my son and ignoring my needs.
I finally joined Weight Watchers (again) on March 4, 2012. I guesstimated my weight to be 230 lbs. I haven't been on a scale in months and the weight was in the high 220's so I figured that was a decent enough guess. I have chosen to weigh myself on Fridays on the scale in the nurses office of the school I teach in, so I did that yesterday and was nervous my weight would actually be over 230! Thankfully, I weighed in at 224.5 lbs. I don't really believe I lost 5.5 lbs in 5 days but I was proud of myself because I know had to have lost a pound or two or three this week. Next week will be the true test of weight loss because I will have "real" weight to compare to as I check my weight.
I have had a range of thoughts and emotions this week. This point system has really made me see that my eating was out of control. Eating anything and everything I desired without concern over how it would effect me. Then later I would spent a lot of time thinking about how I felt fat, like a failure, depressed, sad, angry. In the past couple of years I would say most days I felt bad about how I looked and felt because of my weight MANY times a day. This week I didn't feel that way at all because I finally felt like I was in control. I don't feel like the Earth has shifted or that I have complete control over the situation but I do have confidence that I haven't had in a long time and I was at peace with my body knowing I was doing something for ME!
Prom - Feeling like one of the "big" girls.
College not feeling thin but feeling good because I had conquered the freshman 15 by losing the weight over the summer.
Feeling great because my weight was lower than it had been in years!
My confidence was high and I was proud of myself....it didn't take long for
me to feel out of control and the weight started creeping back on.
Two years ago at Easter. I am a little bigger than this now but this was the beginning of spinning completely out of control and just giving up.
My child is still my focus. Work is still a priority. Family is still a focal point in my life.
So, what was missing?
ME!
I live a rather solitary life once I reach the weekends. I often come home from work on Friday and that is it, I don't make plans with my friends, I don't go out an meet new people, I don't go outside my comfort zone. So, what do I do? I sleep, watch TV, take care of my son, clean, laundry, groceries.
Life is not supposed to be like this. Right? How did I get here? How can I get out of here and start living again?
So, here is what I have decided to do....join Weight Watcher's online. I have tried Weight Watcher meetings in the past and was somewhat successful for awhile at least. Then I found I would be too busy with work and running my son to his activities to really be devoted to the plan and going to the meetings. So, I am trying the online route for now. The online tools are great and now that I have a smart phone and access to computers at home and school I have no excuses of it being inconvenient.
I have been "thinking" about doing something about my weight for years. The key word there is "thinking." I thought about my weight and how I was disappointed in myself many times a day. I would just become discouraged and got into the habit of eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and before I knew it I had gained 30 MORE pounds. I found myself staying home if I didn't have to work, avoiding social situations, and being focused only on my son and ignoring my needs.
I finally joined Weight Watchers (again) on March 4, 2012. I guesstimated my weight to be 230 lbs. I haven't been on a scale in months and the weight was in the high 220's so I figured that was a decent enough guess. I have chosen to weigh myself on Fridays on the scale in the nurses office of the school I teach in, so I did that yesterday and was nervous my weight would actually be over 230! Thankfully, I weighed in at 224.5 lbs. I don't really believe I lost 5.5 lbs in 5 days but I was proud of myself because I know had to have lost a pound or two or three this week. Next week will be the true test of weight loss because I will have "real" weight to compare to as I check my weight.
I have had a range of thoughts and emotions this week. This point system has really made me see that my eating was out of control. Eating anything and everything I desired without concern over how it would effect me. Then later I would spent a lot of time thinking about how I felt fat, like a failure, depressed, sad, angry. In the past couple of years I would say most days I felt bad about how I looked and felt because of my weight MANY times a day. This week I didn't feel that way at all because I finally felt like I was in control. I don't feel like the Earth has shifted or that I have complete control over the situation but I do have confidence that I haven't had in a long time and I was at peace with my body knowing I was doing something for ME!
Prom - Feeling like one of the "big" girls.
College not feeling thin but feeling good because I had conquered the freshman 15 by losing the weight over the summer.
Feeling great because my weight was lower than it had been in years!
My confidence was high and I was proud of myself....it didn't take long for
me to feel out of control and the weight started creeping back on.
Two years ago at Easter. I am a little bigger than this now but this was the beginning of spinning completely out of control and just giving up.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Wow! That Was a Long Break!
Well, the 2010-2011 school year came and went and I am just coming back to this blog. I will try to blog periodically. Wish me luck.
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